7 days have passed...

... and still I feel depressed. Wednesday 30 April I left for Kusadasi, and even when I was on the plane, I thought 'Isn't this journey one big mistake?'. I had said to myself that this would be my last visit to Kusadasi ever if it wouldn't be just perfect. But guess what, it turned out to be... perfect! I met some wonderful people from France and Ireland, and even the Turkish guys surprised me in a positive way lol. With that positive I mean that I met some guys of whom I think it's possible to have a laugh with but also a decent conversation, without something more. And I have to admit, yet again I met 1 guy that swept me off my feet. He didn't notice it, even now he doesn't, and if I can keep my mouth shut I don't think he'll ever know. Why would I tell... I know I'm not pretty enough (he is 'used to go out with models') and if that wasn't an issue, well I heard lots of things about him and in the end he is just a bad person. He even 'frightens' me sometimes with his comments, he is about the most direct person I know. So oké, he can't be good for me, but still there IS something about him and I can't forget him just yet.

But enough about him... let me say something about Nano and John, my two fellow sados I have met. People that know me, just laugh at me when I say that I am actually a shy person, but I'm sure John will agree. In the beginning I was a shy little tomato, but after some Efes I think I rather quickly loosened up hehe. When we were drinking our first few Efes in Kitty's O'Shea, Nano arrived and I did something I would normally never do, I jumped off my chair, ran to her and gave her a big hug. Afterwards I heard she even didn't know what was happening to her or who was hugging her the first few seconds! Ah we really are weirdos I know! :)
That first night I also met the Dutch girl Femke, who is partner in Temple Bar. She and her family are véry nice people! I can't remember exactly how it came up, but I told her quite a lot, also that it was going to be my birthday 2 days later and she asked me if I wanted to celebrate in her bar, because then she would arrange cake and stuff... DUH! Of course I wanted that! :)

The day of my birthday was also my last day there, so it was a bit of a double feeling I had, but no time to get sad about it, because it was all way too good that day. Little summary of the day: When we woke up, me and Nano went for a breakfast in Regatta (yes, where all the cuties work :p) and did some shopping. We passed the place H. works, but I was too chicken to go in (or even to look in) and we continued... For FOUR whole days I was planning some kind of meeting with that guy, but always something came up or I was too chicken to go meet him at his place. But I think that's normal, because he wanted me to come there alone and as a girl going into a bar full of strange people, not my cup of tea! But ok I was busy shopping and afterwards we went back to Regatta (where else). Femke and her family were there, we made some arrangements for the evening with her and then went home. John picked me up to go shopping at Kipa, because I planned a chocolate fondue for the whole bunch and on the way home picked up Femke and family. After a very nice evening at the house, we continued the party at Orient to do some karaoké BUT me and John first paid H. a little visit. (Finallyyyy I got to see him lol) He looked very serious in the beginning, nothing like I thought he would be, because I only knew the joking side of him from on msn. But after a few minutes I felt he changed in his behaviour and I felt some change on me aswell hmmm :) I was surprised of what he did to me, how he made me feel. I was so falling for this guy, unbelieveable... Before, eveybody said to me he is no good, he's not even cute, don't think you'll like him,... but as everybody should know by now, when it comes to guys I am a very strange girl. So the verdict is: he's cute, he seems nice, I could get along perfect with him (apart from one detail that I'll forget for now :p). He's even gonna take me to Istanbul later this year. Yes I know: never gonna happen, just words, blabla. But let a girl dream alright.
But to continue: me and John finished our drink and went back to Orient, because they probably were waiting for us. When we left, H. gave me a big hug and made my day lol. Back at Orient John surprised us all with his sexy voice and after that we left and headed for Temple Bar. There I entered and everybody started singing happy birthday to me, aawwww the sweeties! :) There's too much to tell about that night at Temple but all I say about it is that I couldn't imagine a better place or better people to spend that day with, it was perfect.

After the Temple party we headed for Kitty's, where they also wished me all a happy birthday (I think one guy said it like 20 times) and they gave me a special cocktail, but it was so bad I gave it to the others and Daisy drank the whole thing at once right before her mom was there. :D And whoooo was in Kitty's suddenly... the Regatta boys! Nuri came to me and said some nice things, gave his e-mail address and went sleeping. :) Then there was Ali. Me and Nano both thought he was cute, I danced on the tables with him, Nano took the poor guy's t-shirt so he had to beg for it and eventually I gave it back because he looked so pathetic. When Kitty's closed at 5AM, we all (yes including Ali muhaha) went for soup at Lezzet Evi and the whole Kitty bunch was there aswell. (Gossip: Dinno was eating soup with a transvestite for sure.) After the soup we shared a cab with Daisy and José, Ali decided to walk. But as we were in the cab, we passed Ali and we practically dragged him back in. So we took him with us to the house. Seemed like a good idea at that time, pissed as we were. When we were lying on the couch, we started talking and found out Ali was 20 years old. Then hé found out me and Nano were 24 and 28. Big shock for the poor guy. We talked for a while and for me he got more and more silly by the minute. Nano said 'I am going to bed, have fun with him!', but I said 'no way bitch, you're not leaving me alone with him!' :) So eventually the 3 of us were just lying there on the couch until half past 8, when my taxi arrived. We dropped Ali off in the centre and drove off to Izmir Airport. That was that... In Izmir I almost started crying when saying goodbye to Nano, but I think we were both too pissed and tired to show much emotions. On my way to the plane I met the same guy that I had met in Brussels when leaving, so I had someone to talk to and to keep me awake! At 8PM Sunday 4th of May I was home... still a little drunk, but totally numb.